“Lord You did not hide from me, no not at all !!
You hid for me, yes, for my best interest, for my deep-rooted growth with strong and trusting faith. You hid so I could stand. You hid so I could face and conquer my many fears. You made yourself small to raise me up big and strong!
You Lord are indeed The Great Way Maker, my recompense, my refuge, my hope, my strength…..my ever lasting love and salvation!!
Lord, I know that the past two years was heavier on Your heart than it was on mine! I know that it was no party for You to watch me fall apart and live in fear, turmoil and confusion. I know how you felt and feel for each one of your children when fear, anger and stubbornness tie Your hands from moving in our situations. As parents we want to rescue our children from the troubles of this world but too often we are helpless to do a thing!! Lord, I am so ashamed for hurting You, for causing You pain, for not trusting You when You have done great and mighty works in my life time and time again!
And yet even still, in my darkest hour, in the midst of the horror and absolute carnage of my life, You raised me up!! You did one of Your mighty works and rescued my chick-let when there was no possible rescue available except through You. You showed Yourself strong and in charge and You did it in a way that no one could or would claim it to be a happen chance. No, even non- believers believed You! Lord, we didn’t even use our ace in the whole, You still have it stored up for Your future great pleasure and recompense!! While there is still work to do and You are still working behind the scenes for justice and victory, three months later I am going over the events in utter amazement! I wonder daily of Your secret plans for they are too great for me to figure!!
Lord in all of my falling apart and not trusting You, You were behind the scenes directing things in the way You wanted them to go and You always get Your way even when our finite minds can’t understand your mysterious workings and your perfect plans!
The one thing I know, when the gates of hell are advancing, when the heat is turned up to unbearable temperatures and the sweat of the brow is so profuse and every drop is as if life is being sucked dry of any hope, survival or victory, when I stand stripped down with nothing left to give, oh but that is when You O’ Lord show the world Who is boss and the way things are going to be!! That is when You shout louder than words, “he’s mine, yea that one, she’s mine, yea that one, get your hands off!!” That’s when You say, “Fear Not, I am your God and I fight for you!!”
Stay tuned as I share the details of the journey of how the Great Way Maker made a way for my son’s release from captivity, turned my deceived and broken heart into love, truth, faith and confidence. My Great and Mighty Way Maker turned my hopeless nothing into a strong something!! He raised me up!!