Tag Archive | Eternity

Lost N Found, What A Difference You Made In My Life

John 16:23

In that day you will no longer ask me anything. Very truly I tell you,

my Father will give you whatever you ask in my name.

Have you ever been just going along living the blessed life when suddenly if there was the slightest crack in your foundation you seemed to fall in it and get stuck there a while? Well, I hear ya!

I had some crater cracks that were very visible to me and boy let me tell you, I was diligent to the task of closing those gaps and being set free! On the other hand I had so many hair-line cracks that I didn’t see them with the naked eye, or even a telescopic eye!  Those were the cracks that swallowed me up and held me captive for two long years. I prayed, cried, screamed, kicked and begged for relief, for answers, for deliverance and freedom. God sent none which equals no – one. At least not in the way that I thought it or they should come. Yes, you know where I am going with this one already but please read on.

Now, prior to me falling into the cracks and getting wedged there for what seems like an eternity, a mini forever at the very least, my heart was on fire for God. I don’t mean a itty bitty let’s warm our hands by the fire kind of fire. I mean an all-consuming fire that consumed me night and day! I would become so overwhelmed and I would weep and cry out to God, “Lord, take me and my life and do something good with it!” That kind of fire moves the hand of God instantly. I became an instant crack dweller as God began to make my life and way unrecognizable.

John 16:23  In that day you will no longer ask me anything. Very truly I tell you, my Father will give you whatever you ask in my name.

I stayed in the cracks as God began to show me the not so pleasing aroma of the secret places of my heart.  Day by day, hour by hour and often times minute by minute the Lord undid the doing…… as I kicked, screamed and pouted because in my eyes, I was going backwards and getting further and further away from my life ever being usable for something or anything good.  My dream and the yearning of my heart was now way off in the distance and I could not see it ever being good or doing good again!

everything happens for a reason

The past two years have been a mix of the book of Job and the Exodus.  Disaster after disaster sending me running for my life in terror screaming “Lord, I believe but help me with my unbelief!!!”  I don’t know how many times I thought of turning my ship around and going back to the safe blessed life before I asked God to take my life and do something good with it.  Because a request like that will undoubtedly turn you inside out.  A request like that will cause a complete and total make over.  A request like that will require a complete and total heart transplant.  That is what I got.


You see, I wanted to do good and be a blessing but I wanted to do it within my own terms and my way.  I wanted to love the lovely and not be bothered by the unlovely.  I wanted to feed the hungry but only if they were hungry because of an unforeseen life event or trauma.  I didn’t want to get close to the hungry that just came out of prison, or that had a horrific drug problem that they couldn’t conquer or a drinking problem that they couldn’t overcome or the one’s that kept making the same mistakes over and over and over again.  I didn’t want to help the people who were a product of their environment and come with baggage.  I didn’t want to be around manipulators and thief’s.  I wanted to help but I didn’t want the mess.  I wanted to reach out but not if there was a stench or the least possible chance of an inconvenience or trouble.  I wanted my cake and I wanted to eat it too with no hassle and no mess.  The ridiculous thing is that I didn’t see the rottenness of my heart until the Lord turned my heart inside out!


I didn’t get new eyes to see and new ears to hear until all the things and circumstances that I didn’t want touching my life came to visit and stayed with me for the longest and most excruciating two years of my life!  I will never be the same.  I don’t want to be the same.  I don’t want to be that person ever again that only does the glory work.  I want to be with and grow up with the one’s at the bottom, with the ones that need a second chance from the God of second chances. I want to look back some day and say “God, we made a difference in that one’s life, we gave some hope, some love and a way for a better life, we did it You and me!!

God did exactly what I asked Him to do.  He took my life and day by day He is doing something good with it!

O Lord, What a difference you’ve made in my life!!  Now I am willing and able to make a difference in other’s lives!!

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They Will See – I Will Surrender


This is what was on our Heavenly Father’s heart and the heart of our Precious Savior as the nails ripped through His Beautiful Flesh!

Thank you Lord! I surrendered nothing. Oh, but You Lord surrendered ALL!!!

If I could envision or feel the beautiful love between the Father and Son on our behalf,  it is this beautiful, passionate communication between The Father surrendering The Son and The Son surrendering to The Father for the sake of all us son’s and daughter’s and then the heart of the son’s and daughter’s surrendering to Jesus Christ, the Son of The Father and Savior to All!!  Words and emotions crying out and answering back all beating as one heart yet, separated until the surrender!!

What an intertwining of reaching out – holding on and bittersweet surrender to make us all one!!! A beautiful, passionate love story!!! You must listen to it!

“I Surrender”   http://youtu.be/AshJi7fBbww


There’s so much life I’ve left to live
And this fire is burning still
When I watch you look at me
I think I could find the will
To stand for every dream
And forsake this solid ground
And give up this fear within
Of what would happen if they ever knew
I’m in love with you Cause

I’d surrender everything

To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it too
We’d make it through A thousand dreams
I still believe I’d make you give them all to me
I’d hold you in my arms and never let go

I surrender

I know I can’t survive
Another night away from you
You’re the reason I go on
And now I need to live the truth
Right now, there’s no better time
From this fear I will break free
And I’ll live again with love
And no they can’t take that away from me
And they will see ‘Cause

I’d surrender everything

To feel the chance to live again

I reach to you

I know you can feel it too
We’d make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I’d make you give them all to me

I’d hold you in my arms and never let go

I surrender

Every night’s getting longer
And this fire is getting stronger, babe
I’ll swallow my pride and I’ll be alive










Glad You Called

Today, at this hour,  right this minute, someone is hurting and looking for one good reason to live on.  In our busy and hectic lives we need to quiet our minds and hearts and sniff out those precious and wonderfully made people who are hurting so deeply, that they cannot see a reason to stay.  All it takes is a call, a reminder that they matter, that someone cares, that they make someone’s life and the world a better place.  Never, ever hesitate to make that call!!  Likewise never hesitate to answer that call!!  We may never know how important that one simple call was, nor  how many lives lived on, because we dared to reach out and make that call to someone who desperately needed to hear us, on the other end of the line.  Countless endless lives live on, because of that simple call!!  My son lived on because someone made that call, when I was too busy and over burdened to see that he needed a call!!  He understands the value of  a call.  He is never too busy or burdened to look for someone he can call.  He is 20 years young and would rather make that call than anything else imaginable.  He believes in the powerful message of a song to get the heart-strings motivated.  Check it out and please, just…… Make That Call!!!

“The Call”  by Matt Kennon       http://youtu.be/YK3zs7EV6Tk

The Gift

Packaged in the person of Jesus, is every gift we will ever need to fulfill every longing we will ever have. It will take a lifetime to unwrap the essentials for our present day and an eternity to unfold the glories of our future. But start now,  for a great wealth of gifts have already been given to us.   –Pastor Jack Hayford of California