Tag Archive | God

Trouble Maker


Let’s just say that I am beyond the day of making babies. Not just emotionally but physically and naturally. Also keep in mind that I personally and intimately know that there are no limitations on God’s ability to make the most impossible idea or thing completely and totally possible! In fact I have the kind of personal experiences with my God that give me the inclination to know that beyond a reasonable doubt the more outrageously impossible a thing is, He will show off and show up usually at the eleventh hour and BOOM…He defies all natural law, understanding, and possibility!!

With that being said, just imagine my absolute nervousness and “deer in the headlight,” kind of fright when I had the dream three months ago in the midst of every kind of haywire life event imaginable to my human finite being….yes, i had the dream vision that I was pregnant and a baby was in the future!! Oh, Lord help me Jesus, and steady my shaking knees !!

I knew instantly that God had something on His mind. Can I just tell you how every alert and alarm bell inside of my being went into overtime and overdrive!!! I had to hear from God what lofty thing He was doing with my life and I needed to hear it yesterday!

The only reply I received was “wait for it”……..along with all of the other too many to count impossible, simultaneous situations bombarding my life at the same time. Then He simply said, “remember there are pigs in the basement!” Ha!! I could “write a book” on that statement, in fact He told me to three years ago and I haven’t yet.

Watch for the rest of this story and what God did next. He is so lofty and outrageous! His plans are unthinkable and unsearchable! He causes trouble and then laughs in troubles face!! Oh my goodness He is a pistol!!

Waiting On The Great Way Maker


This past ten days have been mean and lean. I am encouraging my own heart to stand and know that God is God. This previous post reminds me that God is in control no matter what I think or how I feel. Nothing is too hard for my God! Not even a dead womb or a shattered heart. He makes a way with dead things and the deader the better in His economy. So I encourage myself with remembrances of His mighty workings in my past and wait for Him to make my way straight and alive again!!

If you need encouraged please read this will give you comfort!

https://prodigalchick.wordpress.com/2013/05/04/waiting-on-the-great-way-maker/

Dead End Signs


“The frontal attack of the enemy is not a sign of gaining force but a sign of desperation.”
– unknown

Stand still and know that God is God!!! God gives satan just enough rope to hang himself…..and when he does, we rise to the top. Don’t be moved by the frontal attacks, they are a setup for a comeback!!!

He Raised Me Up!!


“Lord You did not hide from me, no not at all !!

You hid for me, yes, for my best interest, for my deep-rooted growth with strong and trusting faith. You hid so I could stand. You hid so I could face and conquer my many fears. You made yourself small to raise me up big and strong!

You Lord are indeed The Great Way Maker, my recompense, my refuge, my hope, my strength…..my ever lasting love and salvation!!

Lord, I know that the past two years was heavier on Your heart than it was on mine! I know that it was no party for You to watch me fall apart and live in fear, turmoil and confusion. I know how you felt and feel for each one of your children when fear, anger and stubbornness tie Your hands from moving in our situations. As parents we want to rescue our children from the troubles of this world but too often we are helpless to do a thing!! Lord, I am so ashamed for hurting You, for causing You pain, for not trusting You when You have done great and mighty works in my life time and time again!

And yet even still,  in my darkest hour, in the midst of the horror and absolute carnage of my life, You raised me up!! You did one of Your mighty works and rescued my chick-let when there was no possible rescue available except through You. You showed Yourself strong and in charge and You did it in a way that no one could or would claim it to be a happen chance. No, even non- believers believed You! Lord, we didn’t even use our ace in the whole, You still have it stored up for Your future great pleasure and recompense!! While there is still work to do and You are still working behind the scenes for justice and victory, three months later I am going over the events in utter amazement!  I wonder daily of Your secret plans for they are too great for me to figure!!

Lord in all of my falling apart and not trusting You, You were behind the scenes directing things in the way You wanted them to go and You always get Your way even when our finite minds can’t understand your mysterious workings and your perfect plans!

The one thing I know, when the gates of hell are advancing, when the heat is turned up to unbearable temperatures and the sweat of the brow is so profuse and every drop is as if  life is being sucked dry of any hope, survival or victory, when I stand stripped down with nothing left to give, oh but that is when You O’ Lord show the world Who is boss and the way things are going to be!!  That is when You shout louder than words, “he’s mine, yea that one, she’s mine, yea that one,  get your hands off!!”  That’s when You say, “Fear Not, I am your God and I fight for you!!”

Stay tuned as I share the details of the journey of how the Great Way Maker made a way for my son’s release from captivity, turned my deceived and broken heart into love, truth, faith and confidence. My Great and Mighty Way Maker turned my hopeless nothing into a strong something!!  He raised me up!!

Lost N Found, What A Difference You Made In My Life


John 16:23

In that day you will no longer ask me anything. Very truly I tell you,

my Father will give you whatever you ask in my name.

Have you ever been just going along living the blessed life when suddenly if there was the slightest crack in your foundation you seemed to fall in it and get stuck there a while? Well, I hear ya!

I had some crater cracks that were very visible to me and boy let me tell you, I was diligent to the task of closing those gaps and being set free! On the other hand I had so many hair-line cracks that I didn’t see them with the naked eye, or even a telescopic eye!  Those were the cracks that swallowed me up and held me captive for two long years. I prayed, cried, screamed, kicked and begged for relief, for answers, for deliverance and freedom. God sent none which equals no – one. At least not in the way that I thought it or they should come. Yes, you know where I am going with this one already but please read on.

Now, prior to me falling into the cracks and getting wedged there for what seems like an eternity, a mini forever at the very least, my heart was on fire for God. I don’t mean a itty bitty let’s warm our hands by the fire kind of fire. I mean an all-consuming fire that consumed me night and day! I would become so overwhelmed and I would weep and cry out to God, “Lord, take me and my life and do something good with it!” That kind of fire moves the hand of God instantly. I became an instant crack dweller as God began to make my life and way unrecognizable.

John 16:23  In that day you will no longer ask me anything. Very truly I tell you, my Father will give you whatever you ask in my name.

I stayed in the cracks as God began to show me the not so pleasing aroma of the secret places of my heart.  Day by day, hour by hour and often times minute by minute the Lord undid the doing…… as I kicked, screamed and pouted because in my eyes, I was going backwards and getting further and further away from my life ever being usable for something or anything good.  My dream and the yearning of my heart was now way off in the distance and I could not see it ever being good or doing good again!

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The past two years have been a mix of the book of Job and the Exodus.  Disaster after disaster sending me running for my life in terror screaming “Lord, I believe but help me with my unbelief!!!”  I don’t know how many times I thought of turning my ship around and going back to the safe blessed life before I asked God to take my life and do something good with it.  Because a request like that will undoubtedly turn you inside out.  A request like that will cause a complete and total make over.  A request like that will require a complete and total heart transplant.  That is what I got.

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You see, I wanted to do good and be a blessing but I wanted to do it within my own terms and my way.  I wanted to love the lovely and not be bothered by the unlovely.  I wanted to feed the hungry but only if they were hungry because of an unforeseen life event or trauma.  I didn’t want to get close to the hungry that just came out of prison, or that had a horrific drug problem that they couldn’t conquer or a drinking problem that they couldn’t overcome or the one’s that kept making the same mistakes over and over and over again.  I didn’t want to help the people who were a product of their environment and come with baggage.  I didn’t want to be around manipulators and thief’s.  I wanted to help but I didn’t want the mess.  I wanted to reach out but not if there was a stench or the least possible chance of an inconvenience or trouble.  I wanted my cake and I wanted to eat it too with no hassle and no mess.  The ridiculous thing is that I didn’t see the rottenness of my heart until the Lord turned my heart inside out!

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I didn’t get new eyes to see and new ears to hear until all the things and circumstances that I didn’t want touching my life came to visit and stayed with me for the longest and most excruciating two years of my life!  I will never be the same.  I don’t want to be the same.  I don’t want to be that person ever again that only does the glory work.  I want to be with and grow up with the one’s at the bottom, with the ones that need a second chance from the God of second chances. I want to look back some day and say “God, we made a difference in that one’s life, we gave some hope, some love and a way for a better life, we did it You and me!!

God did exactly what I asked Him to do.  He took my life and day by day He is doing something good with it!

O Lord, What a difference you’ve made in my life!!  Now I am willing and able to make a difference in other’s lives!!

All images taken from bing.com images

Not Blind


Love is not blind - It sees more and not less, but because it see's more it is willing to see less. - Will Moss

Love is not blind – It sees more
and not less, but because it see’s more
it is willing to see less.
– Will Moss

 

All Credit for art goes to Cebarre from bing images.

He’s Mine, Yeah That One!!


Do you ever think about God’s thoughts or reactions when we get ourselves into trouble? Well, I believe this song sums it up for me. Just like he hates sin but loves the sinner, don’t you know He may not like our behavior or the things we do to get into trouble but you better believe He doesn’t bat an eye to run to our defense and very proudly claim us for His own!!

Enjoy this glimpse of UNCONDITIONAL LOVE of a Father.